and i can't breathe deeply enough to fill me with every disappointment

i think everyone has that one album they listen to when life is both good and bad. it's your fallback. that one album that can give you the highest of highs but also make you feel as sad as you want to be, given the circumstances.

that band for me is misery signals and the album is of malice and the magnum heart. 

yes, it's screamy. yes, it's loud. yes, it's fantastic. but after every happy moment in my life and every disappointment, this album was here for me, ready to be played. every heartache. every fight. every wake up routine. every walk to a job interview. every exciting moment. and the few times i've been able to see misery signals live were incredible, minus the original members that made the actual album, as the band changed members continuously after the album.

so, when misery signals decided to do a 10 year anniversary reunion tour playing of malice and the magnum heart from start to finish, you can bet i was there that wonderful night at the opera house on august 23, 2014. and as the playlist went on and i fought back tears from all of those disappointing memories rushing back, i realized this album was the only album that got me through the last 10 years.

and i know i wasn't the only one who felt this way. a sold out crowd at the opera house could tell you the same thing. although i'd like to say that my life, moving forward, will no longer have any associated disappointment, at least i know i'll have a contingency plan that will keep me fighting the good fight.

this is not my favourite song but it shows just how amazing the band and the crowd was that night. listen to the full album of malice and the magnum heart here.